Amber Portwood: 'I'm scared I'll lose my baby'

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    <p><span></span>On Dec. 28th, <strong>Amber Portwood</strong> emerged from the Madison County jail in Anderson, Ind. visibly shaken and certain she never wants to go back behind bars. "I just can't even imagine not seeing my little baby if I go back to jail," the <em>Teen Mom</em> star and mother to 2-year old Leah told <em>Life & Style</em> in her first post-jail interview right outside the brick walls. "It scares me so bad."</p>  

But it's a very real possibility for Amber. She's been charged with two counts of domestic battery, one count of neglect of a dependent and one misdemeanor charge of domestic battery for beating her ex and Leah's father, Gary Shirley, during an episode of MTV's hit reality show. If convicted, she could be ordered to serve three years in prison and pay a $10,000 fine--which has her second-guessing her decision to sign on to the show in the first place.

In fact, she admits that having her dirty laundry air on TV has for all intents and purposes ruined her life. "I wouldn't have been in jail because nobody would have known about it," she told Life & Style. And her family seems to agree. "Before that scene of her hitting Gary aired, she didn't have problems," her brother Shawn Portwood tells Life & Style. "I can't say completely that it's the show's fault because obviously my sister did it. But Amber and Gary asked them not to air the fight because they knew this legal stuff would happen. Now my sister gets death threats, and my niece's life is in turmoil."

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