It takes a lot of courage for someone to admit he/she has a problem, and Alisan Porter is nothing short of courageous.
Best known for her role as Curly Sue in the 1991 beloved flick of the same name, the former child star took to her blog this week to admit she’s an alcoholic.
In the post, she got right to the point: "Hi, I’m Ali, and I’m an alcoholic.
"Yup, bet you didn’t see that one coming. Or, because you know that I’m a former child star, you totally did. Anyway, it’s the truth. I’ve been sober since Oct 28th, 2007 and I haven’t touched a drink or a drug since," she continued.
As an alcoholic, Alisan explained, “You live life in your head ALL THE TIME, self-centered and all kinds of entitled. Also, when I personally talk addiction or say alcoholism, I’m talking about ‘alcohol’ in all its forms — meaning snort, pill, smoke, drink, even SHOP (I won’t give that one up.) It’s all the same.”
The 33-year-old brunette beauty goes on to explain her younger years in NYC and how she realized she needed help.
“I was miserable and overwhelmed with life. I was heartbroken and realizing that what had always worked for me in the past was NOT working at all. Not even a little bit,” she said. “I felt trapped, scared, and sad and I was ready to really go for broke or get better. So, I did what every good user does and I prayed to a god I had never believed in… and then called my mom.”
Alisan went off to treatment and came out feeling better than ever. She got her life together, married Brian Autenrieth in 2012 and welcomed two children.
"I got married, I had kids, I got a new house, I re-did the floors (I love my floors), I got a car that my dad didn’t pay for, I got a life (that my dad didn’t pay for). I became a better friend, a better daughter, a better artist, better sister… I just got better," she added.
But she knew her battle was far from over when she had the urge to drink again after life got a little “hectic.” She even shared how much she fantasized about having wine, but after thinking about what that action would lead to, she decided against it.
Becoming a mother helped her stay on the right path.
“...every day that I wake up to my kids clear as a bell and ready to take on another day in this new skin, I am grateful. It’s a high like no other and it only comes from me and the Universe that provides for me. Blessings are abundant in this chapter and I’m sitting pretty one day at a time for as long as possible,” she wrote.
“I’m sure that someday my kids will ask me why I don’t drink and my answer will be simple: ‘I never want to lose myself and not be able to find you.’”
You can read Alisan’s moving blog post here.