<div style="text-align: center;"><em>After months of criticism and backlash, Kim reveals to friends: "I am so alone...I didn't expect all of this. It's devastating." </em></div>
On the season finale of Kourtney & Kim Take New York, viewers watched Kim Kardashian melt down on camera, admitting she felt "dead inside" as she let her husband, Kris Humphries, know she was giving up on their marriage.
That meltdown was taped months ago but the situation has only gotten worse. Since filing for divorce on Oct. 31, Kim has struggled to deal with the public backlash -- being criticized and under constant attack for her every move -- and now insiders tell Life & Style she is on the brink of a breakdown.
"She stays home all the time. It's like she's afraid to be in public," an insider tells Life & Style.
But on Jan. 22, Kim stepped out for the night to see pals Loren Ridinger and Jonathan Cheban and confessed she feels lonelier than ever. "I am so alone," an eyewitness overheard Kim lamenting to Loren and Jonathan over dinner at Cipriani Downtown in NYC. "I didn't expect all of this. It's devastating."
In addition to the backlash from fans and viewers, she's taking a hit from lost business deals: Mattel issued a statement that a Kardashian Barbie line would not be manufactured at this time and Shoe Dazzle, the online styling service she co-founded, announced it was closing its U.K. site. She could be losing millions -- and her ex Kris continues to lash out, alleging to pals that Kim even planned his proposal.
Even stepfather Bruce admits it's been a rough time for the two-time divorcee. "It's tough for a woman at 30 -- not married, no kids," Bruce confides to Life & Style. "Kim's an idealist."