<p><span></span><em>The Real Housewives of Orange County</em>'s<strong> Alexis Bellino</strong> breaks her silence about her battle with an eating disorder in the new issue of <em>Life & Style</em>.<br />
"I just didn't want to eat," Alexis remembers when the problem first arose, being 12-years-old and shattered by her parents' divorce. "Looking back, I think it was my way of controlling something at a time when everything else in my life was out of my control."
Six years later, during her freshman year at the University of Missouri- Columbia, the disorder truly sank its claws into her. "I felt so heavy," Alexis admits, saying she became bulimic, throwing up her food on a regular basis. It wasn't until the collapse of her first marriage in 2002 that Alexis finally decided to get help and worked closely with a doctor to stop purging. In 2005, she married her second husband, Jim Bellino who "finally got me to stop counting calories," Alexis tells Life & Style. "He loves my body. In fact, he says he likes me about 5 pounds heavier."
Her weight now fluctuates between 118 and 122 pounds -- but she watches it like a hawk. "It's not like I'm healed," she says. "This haunts me." A typical day's meal plan for her is less than 900 calories. "Sweets are my weakness," she says. "I'll serve everyone else dessert, but I'll pour salt and pepper all over mine so I don't eat it."
"I try not to let my weight consume me, but an eating disorder is a lifetime disease," she tells Life & Style. "It cannot be cured, but it doesn't have to be practiced. My goal is to reach other women -- and let them know that they can conquer it."
For more from Alexis, pick up the new issue of Life & Style on newsstands now in New York and nationwide Friday!
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