<p><span></span>Kristina Kell nearly passed out during her duel to remain in the game on <em>Survivor: Redemption Island</em>. "I hadn't eaten in over 24 hours," she tells <em>Life & Style</em>. "I was dehydrated... I lost feeling in my hands and I was starting to get tunnel vision."</p>
Even though she says "sheer willpower" kept her from giving up, Kristina, 46, lost in the end and became the third player to be eliminated on Wednesday's episode. Now she talks to Life & Style about how much tougher the game is than it looks on TV and why she wishes several "morons" had been eliminated instead of her -- so she could take down returning villain and mastermind Boston Rob.
How did it feel to relive your final duel on Wednesday's episode?
It's actually more emotional than I expected. Last week and this week after I watched it, I actually burst into tears. Woulda, coulda shoulda. It's interesting. It's tough and fabulous and interesting all at the same time.
Jeff was worried you were going to faint. Were you really not doing so well?
It rained so hard the night before that we couldn't start a fire, so I couldn't eat. I hadn't eaten in over 24 hours. Anything. And before that, I had eaten a tablespoon or two of rice per day. So I hadn't eaten. The water was really low, I was dehydrated. I lost feeling in my hands, my fingers, and part of my arms were numb. I was starting to get tunnel vision and I couldn't really hear, I guess from the dehydration. And those blocks were heavy. It was midday, we were out in the sun and the duel was long and I was struggling with it, and I felt like I was going to faint a few times, but in my head I just kept saying, Kristina, don't faint on TV, whatever you do, don't faint on TV.
<p><strong>Were there moments you wanted to give up? </strong><br />
Absolutely. But no matter how bad I wanted to go home at any given moment, which is a natural thing, I would never give up, ever, ever, ever give up.
What kept you going?
The whole game of Survivor is something that I really enjoy, really love and didn't want to stop playing. I wanted to get revenge and get back in the game. So that was my motivation: my sheer willpower.
Who did you want to get revenge on most?
I would have loved to get back in there and get Philip out of the game. I also would have loved to get Natalie out of the game -- she was useless -- and Ashley and Grant. I adore these people, don't get me wrong. They're good people, but it was frustrating playing with them because they didn't really bring much to the table as far as the game goes.
What do you think about Rob?
I like Rob. He's an awesome player. But it's easy for him to play great right now; the people he's playing against are morons. They make Rob look great. Rob's been there four times and knows how to play the game, so he's totally dangerous. He was a villain for a reason, and although I like him personally, I just thought he wasn't great for my game. Obviously that's what he thought about me, and that's why we went head-to-head: I was his target and he was mine.
Think he'll win it all?
No. If I was on the jury and I had to vote and Rob was one of the finalists, I would never vote for Rob. He's had his time. It's somebody else's turn to win a million dollars.
Anyone you're rooting for?
I adore Matt. I like Ashley, she's got half a brain. She's young still, but she had some play in her. But she was just paralyzed by fear. The other girls, it was ridiculous. The 19-year-old, Natalie, I can't even say I played with her. She just sat around and talked about her hair and her boyfriend. It was really frustrating.
Who do you hope goes next?
Philip. But now that I'm out, he is kind of funny to watch. I also hope Natalie goes. I wanted Natalie out at the beginning as well because I felt she really brought nothing to the tribe. She is only valuable to Rob, but for everyone else it's kind of a bummer. She didn't do anything around camp. Inside her head she was completely vacant, and it was just annoying chatter and difficult to spend every day in and out with someone.
If you had another chance to go back, think you could beat Rob?
Oh yeah, absolutely. Looking back on it, I really needed to focus in on the numbers. Whoever had the numbers, whoever had the least amount of tribe mates, that's what would help make my decision. It's hard to say. It's all conjecture. I don't know the makeup of the tribes. I just thought of Philip, and that makes me want to barf.
Would you go back tomorrow?
Oh God, yes. I want to go back so badly. I would love to go back. I learned so much about playing the game. I was very, very excited to play. I had waited 10 years to play the game and I finally was there, and I think some of my excitement might have...I would just be calmer now about playing the game and not let my excitement carry me away as much as it did. I'd do it in a second. It's tough too, way tougher than it looks on TV. It was just grueling, but I would do it in a second.
Watch Survivor: Redemption Island Wednesdays at 8 p.m. on CBS.
Photo Credit: Courtesy of CBS
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