After announcing to the world that she was choosing to end her life on Nov. 1, terminal cancer patient Brittany Maynard reveals she hasn't decided if she will actually go through with it in two days.
"I still feel good enough and I still have enough joy and I still laugh and smile with my family and friends enough that it doesn't seem like the right time right now," she shares in a new video.
"But it will come," she adds, "because I feel myself getting sicker. It's happening each week."
Diagnosed with stage IV Glioblastoma Multiforme — an aggressive form of brain cancer — the 29-year-old was given just six months to live in April.
The Oregon resident announced in a video earlier this month — which quickly went viral — that she was speaking out in support of the Death with Dignity Act, an option in only five states. The law allows an individual, if they qualify, to take medication that will peacefully end their life.
After expressing her desire to visit the Grand Canyon before her death, Brittany — along with her husband, mother and stepfather — were able to visit the Southwest landmark "thanks to the kindness of Americans around the country."
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Since revealing her desire to stay alive a little longer, many are questioning her decision to use strangers' money to fulfill a bucket list wish. Brittany acknowledges the skepticism she's received about the validity of her story has been heartbreaking.
"When people criticize me for not waiting longer, or, you know, whatever they've decided is best for me, it hurts, because really, I risk it every day, every day that I wake up," she shares.
"I think sometimes people look at me and they think, 'Well you don't look as sick as you say you are,' which hurts to hear, because when I'm having a seizure and I can't speak afterwards, I certainly feel as sick as I am."
Watch Brittany's most recent video below:
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