She’s being honest! Duggar fans already got to see Joseph Duggar marry his wife Kendra Caldwell on an earlier episode of Counting On, but TLC plans to give fans a deeper inside look during their two-hour wedding special. During the special, Joseph’s younger sister Joy-Anna Duggar gave an emotional speech during his rehearsal dinner and she admitted her big brother helped her through a difficult time in her life when she struggled to accept her parents’ religious faith.

“I can’t speak and cry. It’s terrible,” the 20-year-old said, already fighting back tears. “First of all, I want to say that Joe, I’m so thankful for you. You really did change my life. Just through my teen years, I think I was having a hard time taking my parents’ faith as my own and you really befriended me as an older brother.”

She went on to explain that Joe was there for her during that difficult point in her life where she was trying to find her faith — she said Joe’s small actions like checking in on her first thing in the morning, telling her he loved her, and asking her what her daily plans were meant a lot to her.

Joy-Anna’s husband Austin Forsyth also noticed how Joe helped his siblings — including his younger brothers — ignite their own faith when Joe returned from college, and he inspired them to read the Bible. “Really, we’re just a bunch of crying Forsyth babies,” he added as he started to tear up.

But it looks like Joy-Anna was able to find her faith and she chose to pay tribute to that faith when she chose a name for her son, who was born last month. “Austin and I wanted a strong name for our son and when he was born we decided on Gideon because it is a Biblical name,” she revealed to Us Weekly. “He was a man of power and one that was willing to serve the Lord even when the odds were against him.” Watch the video below to see pics of baby Gideon!