You must not know ’bout Beyoncé! When JAY-Z admitted to “infidelity” in a November interview with T: The New York Times Style Magazine, insiders thought his candor about his cheating ways was just what his marriage to Queen Bey needed. Not exactly.

“Ever since JAY admitted to cheating, Beyoncé can’t stop thinking about it,” an insider exclusively tells Life & Style. “JAY thought once he came clean, she would forgive him, but instead, it’s made things worse.” Her worries escalate whenever her husband of nine years, 48, is away for an extended stretch, as he was on his 4:44 Tour through most of November and December.

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“Beyoncé was at home with three children while he was out touring,” the insider notes, “and she was living in constant fear that he would cheat again.” Bey, 36, gave birth to twins Rumi and Sir in June, making 5-year-old Blue a big sister. “Beyoncé and JAY had a short honeymoon phase where they came together for their twins,” the insider says. “But that didn’t last. Beyoncé can’t seem to get past his cheating.”

Honestly, the Beyoncé/JAY-Z saga is too much for our hearts to handle. We too thought that the interview would help smooth things over for the complicated couple. Celebrity reputation expert, Eric Schiffer talked to In Touch shortly after the rapper confirmed the cheating rumors and assured fans that his brand wouldn’t be damaged.

“His brand is truth and authenticity. This is an admitted drug dealer. This is someone that raps about his drug game, that speaks about his life in vivid detail. For him to discuss the infidelity and even going to therapy is not a great danger to the brand.” JAY admitted to attending therapy sessions in his NYT interview and said, “I think the most important thing I got is that everything is connected. Every emotion is connected and it comes from somewhere.”

It’s admirable that he was able to come forward and tell the truth. And it’s true that his career is still flourishing.. we hope the same will happen for his marriage. If not, then it’s everything he owns in a box to the left…

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