Life for Nicole Scherzinger at 27 seemed perfect: she was the lead singer in the super-successful Pussycat Dolls, utterly gorgeous and in an amazing relationship.
But behind closed doors, life was far from perfect. In the new issue of British Cosompolitan, the songstress admits she was struggling with an eating disorder.
“I had started losing my voice, I couldn’t sing at shows, and then I remember my manager finding me passed out on the floor in Malta or in the south of France,” she said about her battle with bulimia.
“I thought, ‘I’m going to lose everything I love if I don’t love myself.’ One day when you feel like you’ve reached the end, you just say, ‘I’m not doing this anymore.’ It’s sad to see how I wasted my life. I had such a great life on the outside, the Dolls were on top of the world but I was miserable on the inside. I’m never letting that happen again; you only get one life – I was 27 only once.”
Nicole admits she was embarrassed by her actions, and went to great lengths to keep it a secret from her loved ones.
“I didn’t think anyone knew in my group or in my family because I hid it that well, I was so ashamed," she said. "I knew it wasn’t normal or healthy because I was hurting myself through this cycle of disordered eating. It was my drug, my addiction. It’s an endless vicious cycle.”
But just like these nine other stars, Nicole got help and beat the disease!