Eight years after turning himself in for physically assaulting Rihanna, Chris Brown is telling his side of the story. In a new documentary, the “Loyal” singer is sharing more graphic details from his toxic relationship with RiRi — and claims she was abusive as well.

Chris, 28, revealed that their relationship started deteriorating after he confessed to cheating on Rihanna, 29, eight months into their romance. “From there, it just went downhill because there were too many verbal fights, physical fights as well. Mutual sides,” he said in Welcome to My Life. “It is the first time I get to say anything. We would fight each other. She would hit me, I would hit her and it never was OK.”

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He continued, “There was always a point where we’d talk about it like, ‘What the f–k are we doing?’ “Like, ‘I don’t like you slapping me.’ If I go on stage I got a scratch on my face and I gotta explain it like, ‘Oh, no I fell.’ If you got a scar or a bruise you gotta put makeup on. I’m not ever trying to put my hands on any female.”

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Chris also provided more graphic details about that night in 2009 after the Clive Davis Grammy party when he left Rihanna bruised beyond recognition. “I remember she tried to kick me, but then I really hit her, with a closed fist, I punched her. I busted her lip,” he said. “When I saw it, I was in shock. I was like, ‘F–k’ why the hell did I hit her? From there she just spit in my face, spit blood in my face and it enraged me even more.”

For her part, the “Umbrella” singer has put the traumatic experience behind her. “I have forgiven him,” she told Oprah Winfrey in 2012. “It took me a long time. I was angry for a long time. I thought I hated Chris but I realized it was love that was tarnished. It looked like hate because it was ugly, it was angry, it was inflamed, it was tainted… I had to forgive him because I cared about him still. The minute I let go of that, I started living.”