The tears were flowing in the Nov. 2 TLC special Kate: Her Story. An emotional Kate Gosselin painfully admitted that her very public divorce from Jon has left her doubting herself. "I'm awake in the middle of the night thinking, Am I making the best decisions?" Now, in an exclusive interview with Life & Style, Kate's longtime friend Jamie Ayers reveals that the soon-to-be-single mom fears she may not find happiness with another man ever again.

"She said to me, 'I don't think I'll ever find someone who can put up with me and my eight kids,'" Jamie tells Life & Style. Kate also has her bossy image working against her. "She's a very strong person -- maybe one of the strongest people I've ever met," Jamie tells Life & Style. "She's very in charge."

Still, the trust factor may be the biggest hurdle that Kate, 34, must overcome before she can start to date again. "It's hard to trust people in the position she's in," Jamie says. "I don't know how she'll find somebody." But when Kate is finally ready to take that leap of faith and find a new man, the reality star will have a lot to offer, says her good friend. "Kate is fun, sweet, organized and loving," Jamie tells Life & Style. "There will be someone out there for her -- someday."

For more on Kate, pick up the latest issue of Life & Style, on newsstands now!

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