Just when we thought we had no tears left to cry. Earlier this week, Ariana Grande took to Instagram to address the tragic passing of her ex-boyfriend, Mac Miller, in a very heartfelt tribute. But it seems like Ari is still mourning his death, because she took to her Instagram story on Saturday, Sept. 15 to share two screenshots of two of Mac's songs that she was listening to on Apple Music.
It seems like Ari is still Mac's biggest fan, and she said that she will always adore him even though their relationship did not work out.
"I adored you from the day I met you when I was nineteen and I always will," the "God is a woman" singer began her deeply emotional tribute along with a sweet video of her longtime love.
"I can't believe you aren’t here anymore. I really can't wrap my head around it. We talked about this so many times. I'm so mad. I'm so sad. I don't know what to do. You were my dearest friend for so long. Above anything else, I'm so sorry I couldn't fix or take your pain away — I really wanted to. The kindest sweetest soul with demons he never deserved. I hope you're [OK] now. Rest," Ariana concluded.
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i adored you from the day i met you when i was nineteen and i always will. i can’t believe you aren’t here anymore. i really can’t wrap my head around it. we talked about this. so many times. i’m so mad, i’m so sad i don’t know what to do. you were my dearest friend. for so long. above anything else. i’m so sorry i couldn’t fix or take your pain away. i really wanted to. the kindest, sweetest soul with demons he never deserved. i hope you’re okay now. rest.
While this isn't the first time Ariana has acknowledged Mac's passing, it is the first time she has spoken on it. On Sep. 8, the 25-year-old shared a black-and-white photo taken in what seems to be her perspective of Mac sitting on the ground. In the pic, Mac looked up at the camera and a pair of feet wearing white sneakers standing in between his legs are visible. She disabled the comments on the post and didn't add a caption.
"Ariana just found out as did the family," a source close to the singer told Radar at the time. "They were not on good terms at the end and to my knowledge they did not have closure."
The rapper reportedly passed away at the young age of 26 after the LA Fire Department responded to an emergency call at 11:42 a.m. from his Studio City home. Sadly, law enforcement sources claimed Mac was pronounced dead at the scene. He supposedly has been struggling after he and Ariana split in May following a two-year relationship.
Later that month, Mac totaled his G-Wagon by smashing into a telephone pole and was arrested for a DUI and hit and run. Even though he initially fled the scene, cops said he later confessed at home and allegedly blew two times the legal limit. After his arrest, Ariana took to Twitter to express her concern for her former flame, writing: "Pls take care of yourself."
Mac was head-over-heels for Ariana and his vulnerable lyrics from his latest album, Swimming, prove he was going through a rough patch after their breakup. "Self Care," "Come Back To Earth," "Hurt Feelings," "What's The Use?," and "So It Goes" are just a few of the titles. Like Ariana, fans and celebs are overcome with grief after hearing about Mac's death, with several taking to social media to pay homage.
"Tears poured down my face when I heard your voice knowing you're not here anymore. It’s not gonna be the same anymore... RIP to a real one, gone but never forgotten," one fan wrote. "You will forever live through your music! I'm so speechless right now," another added. We're keeping Mac's loved ones in our thoughts during this very tough time.
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