We know it wasn’t easy for Khloé Kardashian to go through her highly-publicized split from Lamar Odom back in 2013 — and in a new interview with Glamour, the Keeping Up With the Kardashians star revealed how she was REALLY dealing with her heartbreak behind the scenes. The former couple was married for four years and KoKo filed for divorce thanks to the former NBA player’s infidelity and substance abuse issues.

“That was a really, really hard time for me. It was the first time I had received really negative attention. I’ve never been a party girl, but [drinking] is something I turned to. I was probably drunk while we were filming Season 9,” she told Glamour. Elsewhere in the interview, Khloé reflected on the early KUWTK days when she spent time in jail for a DUI. “That’s one of those times you wish you didn’t have cameras on you. It was more embarrassing than anything else. I mean, I could have hurt or killed someone. But, you know, that happened. And I dealt with it. And it will never happen again.”

It appears as though this is no longer an issue in the reality star’s life. Today, she is happily dating fellow NBA star Tristan Thompson — not to mention, she’s never looked better! She’s had a number of hosting gigs over the years, most recently her spin-offs Kocktails With Khloé and [Revenge Body With Khloé Kardashian](http://www.eonline.com/shows/revengebodywithkhloekardashian), so it’s safe to say she’s doing well for herself.

Lamar has been vocal about their relationship recently and seemingly owned up to his mistakes. Back in March, he admitted to Us Weekly that he regrets cheating during their time together. “B—-es and THOTs came out of the woodwork. If there is one thing I regret when I was married, it was having multiple affairs with different women. That wasn’t the stand-up thing to do. I wish I could have kept my d–k in my pants.”

However, today they are seemingly on better terms. “I just texted her yesterday,” he exclusively told Life & Style at an Aug. 19 event. “I don’t think she hates me, even though she has every reason to. I definitely don’t hate her.”