Our hearts are breaking for Married At First Sight star Jamie Otis. After sharing over the weekend that she suffered from her third miscarriage, she’s had a rough few days. And things just don’t seem to be getting any easier. Though she and her husband, Doug Hehner, told fans that they are “trying [their] best to stay positive” and that “the worst of it is finally over,” they’re still struggling with all of the emotional fallout that comes with going through something like this.

On her Instagram story on the morning of Monday, Jan. 14, the reality star opened up about how she was feeling. “I’m getting out of bed today,” she wrote with a picture of her still under the covers. “I’m going to shower and brush my teeth. #PositiveThinking.” Just a few minutes later, though, she gave fans another update. “Still. Here. #InMyFeelings. It seems so easy. You roll out of bed. Turn the shower on. Step in. But why is it so hard.”

Jamie Otis Struggles To Get Out Of Bed Following Miscarriage
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Luckily, an hour later, it seemed like she’d managed to start her day, sharing a video of herself blowdrying her hair. “Doing it,” she wrote, “#ProudOfMyself.” And it wasn’t long until she received some good news which hopefully made her day that much better. After her “failed miscarriage,” which meant that the couple’s baby had stopped growing inside of her but she hadn’t yet miscarried it, she had to choose between hoping things would continue naturally, taking medicine, or heading to the hospital for a D&C, dilation and curettage. The star chose the medicine, hoping it would help things along, and after another doctor’s appointment she found out that it had done its job.

“Just got home from my follow up doc apt. No D&C needed. I am *so thankful* for this.🙏🏻💗,” she revealed in an Instagram post later in the day. “@doughehner & I have to wait a month before we can hop back on the trying-to-conceive bandwagon. But honestly — at this point — I don’t even know when we are going to begin trying again. At first I was so hurt, but I’m almost mad now. Not mad, just frustrated I guess.😭 We’re going to wait the cycle and see how we feel when the time comes.🙏🏻💗”

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Just got home from my follow up doc apt. No D&C needed. I am *so thankful* for this.🙏🏻💗 • @doughehner & I have to wait a month before we can hop back on the trying-to-conceive bandwagon. • But honestly – at this point – I don’t even know when we are going to begin trying again. At first I was so hurt, but I’m almost mad now. Not mad, just frustrated I guess.😭 • We’re going to wait the cycle and see how we feel when the time comes.🙏🏻💗 • Until then, I am going to be checked for thrombophilia. My docs and I are at a loss as to why I had a second trimester loss and now two miscarriages in about four months.🤷🏻‍♀️ • To all you mamas out there who have ever suffered a loss or are going through a loss right alongside me…please know you aren’t alone.💕 We will get through this together. One in four never seems real until it happens to you. I’m here for you, my fellow angel baby mamas. No one should have to go through this alone.🙏🏻💗 • And Douglas, thank you for spooning me even when I don’t have the energy to shower. Thank you for kissing me even after I’m just too lazy to brush my teeth all day.🤦🏻‍♀️ And Thank you for loving me unconditionally. I’m so blessed to have you as my hubby. I love you. ✨💗💫 • • #ttc #tryingtoconceive #pregnancyjourney #pregnancyloss #miscarriage #1in4 #pregnancylossawareness #pregnancylosssupport #miscarriageawareness #support #yourenotalone #positivevibes #angelbaby #miscarriagesupport #miscarriagesucks #rainbowbaby #hope #faith #love #angelbabymom #marriedatfirstsight #Thankful #grateful #blessed🙏

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She continued, “Until then, I am going to be checked for thrombophilia. My docs and I are at a loss as to why I had a second trimester loss and now two miscarriages in about four months. To all you mamas out there who have ever suffered a loss or are going through a loss right alongside me…please know you aren’t alone.💕 We will get through this together. One in four never seems real until it happens to you. I’m here for you, my fellow angel baby mamas. No one should have to go through this alone.🙏🏻💗”

The star also had a message for her husband, writing, “And Douglas, thank you for spooning me even when I don’t have the energy to shower. Thank you for kissing me even after I’m just too lazy to brush my teeth all day. And thank you for loving me unconditionally. I’m so blessed to have you as my hubby. I love you. ✨💗💫”

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I’m my mommy and daddy’s little rainbow 🌈 💗👶🏼💫 #rainbow #rainbowbaby #toddler #love #mommysbaby #daddyslittlegirl #family

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But she’s planning on another way to help her heal, too. “I’m clearing my calendar entirely for tomorrow,” she told fans on her Instagram Story. “I’m taking my daughter out and we’re having a whole mommy-and-me day because I need it. More than her, I need it.” She continued in a caption, writing, “Tomorrow is a mental health day. WITH my kid. [Because] she makes my heart so happy.”