She never saw this coming! During last night’s episode of Long Island Medium, cameras caught Theresa Caputo trying to figure out how to cope with being alone on tour as her marriage to husband, Larry Caputo, was dissolving. “Honestly, I don’t want to leave, and I am just feeling extra anxious,” she said following an appearance. “God knows what I’m going home to. The situation with Larry and I is still unresolved. We’re living separately right now, so we’re just taking it day by day.”

She continued, “I don’t know what’s going to happen. Let’s get down to the real of it. Am I nervous? Am I scared? Absolutely. So now this next step, I don’t know what that’s going to be, but things just aren’t the same.”

While Theresa kept things pretty vague about her marital troubles, she did make sure to mention that there is no bad blood between the two — in fact, they still have feelings for each other. “I think it would be easier if Larry and I didn’t care about each other,” she admitted. “But it’s hard when you love someone, when you really don’t want to let go.” Theresa said this will be the first time in more than 30 years that she’s on her own and she has “to be stronger than ever” because of it.

So what happened? Did Larry cheat on Theresa? Not quite. As we previously reported, there’s no indication of infidelity between the two reality stars, but Theresa did have a dream back in 2013 that Larry was having an affair.

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In the previous episode, Larry comes home to find Theresa very upset. “Where have you been? You’re in big trouble!” she yelled. “What am I in big trouble about?” Larry responded. After she told him about her vision, he laughed it off and the pair agreed to go to dance lessons to try and spend more time together and ease Theresa’s mind.

Unfortunately, there weren’t enough dance lessons to save their marriage. The couple announced their permanent split in December 2017. “After 28 years of marriage, we have decided to legally separate,” they said in a statement to Us Weekly. “We will always love each other and our two wonderful children. We are united in supporting each other and our family. Please respect our privacy during this time.”