Unfortunately, fame doesn't always come with happiness and Jada Pinkett Smith may have just learned that the hard way. During the latest episode of her daughter Willow Smith's Facebook Watch talk show, Red Table Talk, the conversation was focused around dealing with loss. Willow explained to her mother and grandmother, Adrienne Norris, that her greatest loss was her "insanity" and she began cutting herself to cope in 2010.
Jada was blindsided. "What? When were you cutting yourself?" she asked. "I didn't see that part. Cutting yourself where?" Willow revealed tiny scars on her wrist and said, "I mean, you can't even see it but there's still a little something there. But like, totally lost my sanity for a moment there. I never talk about it because it was such a short weird point in my life."
Willow admitted that she was just 10 years old when she started the downward spiral. "It was after that whole 'Whip My Hair' thing and I had just stopped doing singing lessons," she said. "I was kind of just in this gray area of, 'Who am I? Do I have a purpose? Is there anything I can do besides this?'"
She continued, "After the tour and the promotion and all of that, they wanted me to finish my album. And I was like, I'm not gonna do that. And after all of that kinda settled down and it was like a kind of lull, I was just listening to a lot of dark music. It was just so crazy and I was plunged into this black hole, and I was cutting myself."
Willow explained that the way she felt on the inside — not knowing her purpose or what she should be doing in life — wasn't visible to outsiders therefore cutting made her feel like she could physically touch this pain. The now 17-year-old said she stopped self-harming after coming to the realization that it was "psychotic."
She admitted to confiding in a friend, but kept her entire family, including dad Will Smith and brother Jaden Smith, in the dark. "That's good to freaking know!" Jada said. "Willow, I had no idea. I never saw any signs of that."
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