It’s been almost a year since Angelina Jolie filed for divorce from Brad Pitt. And despite everything that went down between them (ahem, a child abuse investigation by the FBI), the actress has contemplated a reconciliation with her ex. Problem is, he isn’t interested!

“Angie loves Brad. She still holds out hope that her family might get back together one day,” a friend tells Life & Style. And though “she’s putting on a good face to show she can live without him,” an Angie insider says, she secretly “hopes he sees how much stronger she’s become,” and will want her back.

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“She misses having Brad around and keeps reminiscing about the amazing, romantic times they had early on,” the Angelina source shares. “She rarely goes out at night” anymore, and is lonely without the 53-year-old, despite having her six kids with the Oscar winner — Maddox, 16, Pax, 13, Zahara, 12, Shiloh, 11, and twins Vivienne and Knox, 9 — to keep her company.

brad and angelina with kids

But Brad isn’t about to forget the public humiliation he suffered at the hands of the brunette beauty anytime soon. “He’s sober and healthy and ready to focus on his kids and career,” the friend says. “The last thing Brad wants is to go backward.” Adds the Angelina insider, “When they lived together, Angie would constantly nag Brad to change and tell him to ‘grow up.’ The reason he changed he changed his lifestyle was for the kids, not to impress Angelina.”

Earlier this year in an interview with GQ Style, Brad blamed himself for his marriage’s demise. “I mean I stopped everything except boozing when I started my family. But even this last year, you know — things I wasn’t dealing with. I was boozing too much. It’s just become a problem,” he admitted.

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