British pop star Cheryl Cole is looking different these days and she’s finally admitted why. After the release of her now-deleted music video “Love Made Me Do It,” fans have been speculating about her appearance, claiming she got plastic surgery, botox, lip fillers, and more done to her face.

A few months ago, Liam Payne’s ex and baby mama blamed her change of appearance on lack of sleep, but now she’s saying her sudden change of appearance is actually a result of becoming a mom. The singer, who gave birth to son Bear Payne in March 2017, confessed she doesn’t care for her appearance as much as she once did.

“My whole body, even my face, everything’s changed since Bear was born. But I feel like I’m better than who I was. I don’t care what my body looks like in that respect. I’m not obsessed about it,” she told The Sunday Times Style magazine.

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“I created a life! I’m amazed by myself. And I’m kinder to myself because of it. I focus less on my insecurities because they’re so much less relevant,” admitted Cheryl to the outlet. This is Cheryl’s first interview in four years, and it’s also her return to music, therefore it’s natural she’s going to look different, especially since she’s been less in the spotlight since giving birth.

In July of this year, both she and Liam announced their split on social media, revealing it was a “tough decision” to make, but making it clear their one-year-old son is their priority. Now Cheryl opened up about their breakup, confessing that “maybe” Liam felt excluded when Bear was born. “When I think back to the early days of new motherhood, I was in such a bubble of love, I actually don’t think I saw anyone else,” she added.

Since they called it quits, Cheryl’s only focus is her son. “I feel full. My heart’s full, I’m fulfilled. I’m not looking for anything anymore. I’m whole. I’ve got the man of my dreams,” she admitted. You go, girl!