It may be easy to get sexy while making a baby, but it turns out it’s not so easy to feel sexy after having a baby — even for former swimsuit models like Chrissy Teigen. After welcoming her second child, a baby boy named Miles, with husband John Legend, they took a minute to get back into the swing of things. But recently, she was cleared to start exercising and having sex again, and now she’s adjusting to what it’s like being in her body after baby number two. 

As it turns out, learning how to juggle two kids is a huge learning curve — and it takes up a lot of energy. “It doesn’t matter who you are – even if you’re a sexy R&B crooner or an ex-swimsuit model, you’re just tired,” Chrissy told Women’s Health. “We still have that passion for each other, but are we doing it randomly in a dressing room? No! We’ll get back into it again. But it is funny: If he performs somewhere, and I go, I’m like, ‘Oh he’s sexy.’ We’ll probably have sex that night.”

It’s not just her sex life that’s changed, though. Chrissy’s had a post-baby body since giving birth to Luna, but things changed even more after round two. “I look at my boobs and I’m like, What the heck happened?” the cook book author said. “They face outwards now. They’re like giant disks.” And when it comes to feeding her son, there’s a whole other adjustment period — this time, for everyone around her. “With your second, you just, like, pop ’em on,” she explained. “I don’t even know how to hide them. I forget that people are still like, ‘Whoa!’ And I don’t mean to shove my boob in their faces.”

Luckily, she’s not aiming to get back to the body she had back before she was a mother. She’s content with learning how to love and live in her body as it is now. “Honestly, I don’t ever have to be in a swimsuit again,” she admitted. “Since I was 20 years old, I had this weight in my mind that I am, or that I’m supposed to be. I’ve been so used to that number for 10 years now. And then I started realizing it was a swimsuit-model weight. There’s a very big difference between wanting to be that kind of fit and wanting to be happy-fit.”

These days, Chrissy’s about being “happy-fit,” and that comes with learning her strengths and weakness in the gym and knowing she’s strong even when her outsides are a little softer than they used to be. “Sometimes I think I’m the weakest person, but I can plank for 20 minutes,” she says. “I’ve always had a really strong core, but it’s truly in the core of my body, like, the stuff that’s on the outside – kinda gummy, but the stuff that’s on the inside: strong.”