Next Sunday, Keeping Up with the Kardashians fans will see Khloé Kardashian relive one of the most tragic and devastating moments of her life… finding out about baby daddy Tristan Thompson‘s cheating scandal just hours before going into labor with her first child. Khloé opened up about how that made her feel to a fan on Twitter, and our hearts are breaking for the 34-year-old.

“I feel so bad @khloekardashian had to go through what Tristan did while filming #KUWTK,” said a fan on Twitter. “If I’m not wrong, next episode will be insane. You’re so strong to put that personal issue as part of the show knowing millions of ppl will watch it. I wouldn’t be able to do it.”

Khloé responded directly to her supportive follower, writing, “Sadly, it will [be insane].” Still, Khloé has grown up in the public eye, and she knows that means sometimes she will have to share the hard stuff, too. “I signed up to show the for the good and the bad, right? The bad is very hard to relive but it’s life,” she said.

Still, Khloé admitted that knowing what’s coming is stressing her out big time. “Oh my gosh my birthing episode is going to be soon!!” she tweeted on Oct. 28. “The anxiety I have for that to air 🙄 #KUWTK.” We don’t blame her for being worried. While the whole world already knows that Tristan was spotted cheating on Khloé with multiple women, and that she went into labor not long after, we’ve never seen Koko or her family’s immediate reactions. We can only assume her response will be raw, honest, and painful to watch.

Luckily, things are a lot better now. She and Tristan are getting along a lot better, she loves being a mommy to 6-month-old True Thompson, and she has the support of her family every step of the way. We’re sure they’ll help her get through this next episode, too. Good luck, Koko!