Former Hills star Heidi Montag has always been open and honest about the plastic surgery she’s had done over the years, but fans just learned a scary, new detail about her transformation. In an interview with Paper Magazine, the reality star got real about the near-death experience she had in 2010 after undergoing 10 procedures over the course of 24 hours.

“Spencer thought he lost me,” Heidi, 31, told the magazine. “I died for a minute. With that much surgery, I had to have 24-hour nurse care and Spencer didn’t want to leave my side. I was at a recovery center and had Demerol to deal with the pain because it was so extreme.”

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While recalling the experience, Heidi said her heart actually stopped beating for a brief moment, and her security guards thought she wouldn’t make it out alive. The reality star “easily could’ve” died, so the incident changed her perspective on going under the knife. She shared, “Cutting yourself up isn’t something I’d recommend, and Demerol isn’t anything to play around with. That’s how Michael Jackson died.”

The months following the procedures were difficult for Heidi as well. She explained, “I had to look at myself in the mirror every day healing, and be like, ‘What did I do to myself? How did I get here? What is going on?’” Of course, the reality star tried to look at the positives. She said, “I basically had to hit that rock-bottom moment in my life, to realize what was important to me.”

Today, Heidi is focused on living life to the fullest with Spencer Pratt and raising her adorable six-month-old son, Gunner. If you take one look at her Instagram page, it’s clear her family is one of her biggest priorities. She shared, “I just want [Gunner] to enjoy his life, and not live in his parents’ mistakes or shadows.”

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