People would kill to live like Kylie Jenner — but the pressure is finally getting to the reality star. Her luxe life is not enough and she is planning an escape from the crazy spotlight.

Sources reveal exclusively to Life & Style that Kylie is going “insane” and she is shopping for farmhouses in remote parts of California to get away from all the drama. With her eye on small towns such as Diablo and Paskenta (population: 112), the 19-year-old is hoping a change of scenery can help.

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“Kylie is romanticizing a life far from celebrities, but the reality is that she’d be bored out of her mind,” says the insider. “When she told Khloé [Kardashian], her sister laughed.” However, her mental health is not a laughing matter. On an upcoming episode of her new series, Life of Kylie, the lip kit mogul goes to a therapy session and makes an unexpected confession on camera.

“Sometimes, I’m like, ‘This is it; I’m going insane,’” she tells the doctor. “‘Like I’m going crazy.’” An insider also reveals that she suffers from panic attacks and is constantly looking over her shoulder.

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This would not be the first time, Kylie, who has quite a collection of pets including a pig, talked about escaping to farm life. “If I could do whatever I wanted, I would have a successful makeup line, and I would want to hopefully start more businesses, and just be, like, a businesswoman,” she told Interview magazine. “And then, hopefully, I’ll go off the map. When I’m, like, 30, I want to go off the map, have a family, and live in Malibu with a farm, and just raise my own chickens. My next goal for 2016 is to learn how to garden.”

It looks like her farm life might be happening sooner than she thought.