No one said finding your fiancé on TV was going to be easy! A source tells Life & Style exclusively that Rachel Lindsay‘s happily ever after moment at the end of her Bachelorette season was not what she had envisioned.

The 32-year-old got engaged at the San Vicente de la Sonsierra Castle in Spain — if you want to find out which guy gets her final rose, check out our spoilers — but she was a total mess the night before. Watch the video below for more details about her “proposal from hell”:

Even though Rachel fell hard for both of her final suitors, they couldn’t be more different. “The runner-up is great on paper — he’s good-looking, and their chemistry was great — but he was very nervous about marriage, and that made Rachel question if he was really the one,” a source shares.

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“The winner is extremely handsome and charismatic, but Rachel questioned his sincerity,” a different insider notes. “At times he came off a little too suave, and that made Rachel wonder if he was there for the right reasons.”

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