Singer Ariana Grande hasn’t had an easy year, but she’s here to tell you she’s “thankful” and “still healing.” The thank u, next songstress took to social media on March 2 to reflect on the year that saw her ex-boyfriend Mac Miller‘s untimely death and her whirlwind romance and subsequent split from Pete Davidson.

“Mmmmk … about to embark on my third tour and am for sure deep as f—k in my feelings. And getting my period so … this is probably gonna be too much,” she began her long caption on a cute black-and-white selfie.

“But I just want to say how grateful I am for my life, for the people in it, for the ups and challenges, for the laughter and the pain, for this music and for the lifelong friendships I’ve made thru [sic] making it (that includes my friendship with y’all),” the 25-year-old gave a shout-out to her fans, who are seriously always there for the singer, especially on Instagram and Twitter.

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mmmmk …. about to embark on my third tour and am for sure deep as fuck in my feelings. and getting my period so…. this is probably gonna be too much. but i just want to say how grateful i am for my life, for the people in it, for the ups and challenges, for the laughter and the pain, for this music and for the lifelong friendships i’ve made thru making it (that includes my friendship with y’all)… maaaaaaaan… i cant really fathom all that has happened over the past few years. i don’t even really know where i’m going with this post but i’m just grateful to be here still. and excited to see you. i’m prolly gonna cry a lot. a few months ago i told my team i wasn’t even in an okay enough place to tour or work at all and my friends, you guys and this music really saved my life and turned everything around. i’m still healing but i feel a lot lighter as of late and i think this is really going to be such a beautiful time. thank god we are doing this. i can’t imagine what else i’d do and i want you to know how thankful i am…… anyway. i’m gonna go focus on finishing this show for y’all and put my phone away for a little (how much u wanna bet i don’t last a day) so i don’t ruin all the surprises. thank you. for everything. i am so deeply and eternally grateful. life is wild. but your love and this music make it feel so sweet. love u. 🌑

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“Maaaaaaaan [sic] … I cant really fathom all that has happened over the past few years, I don’t even really know where I’m going with this post but I’m just grateful to be here still. and excited to see you. I’m prolly [sic] gonna cry a lot,” she continued.

The singer split from the SNL actor in October 2018 after being engaged for just four months. A month prior, Ari’s ex and longtime love Mac passed away from an alleged overdose. It’s clear that while the singer hasn’t exactly been the same since, she’s also been figuring herself out and leveling up, using her fans and her music to guide her.

“A few months ago I told my team I wasn’t even in an okay enough place to tour or work at all and my friends, you guys and this music really saved my life and turned everything around,” revealed the singer, who has been vocal about pursuing therapy for her anxiety after her concert at the Manchester Arena in 2017 ended in a vicious terrorist bombing that killed 20 plus people.

“I’m still healing but I feel a lot lighter as of late and I think this is really going to be such a beautiful time,” she explained her predictions for her impending Sweetener/thank u, next tour.

“Thank god we are doing this. I can’t imagine what else I’d do and I want you to know how thankful I am … anyway. I’m gonna go focus on finishing this show for y’all and put my phone away for a little (how much u [sic] wanna bet I don’t last a day) so I don’t ruin all the surprises,” she concluded. “Thank you. For everything. I am so deeply and eternally grateful. Life is wild. But your love and this music make it feel so sweet. love u [sic].”