Since Paris Jackson‘s 18th birthday, she has racked up quite a collection of tattoos — more than 50 to be exact. Nine of her tattoos commemorate her late father, Michael Jackson, who died when she was 11. She also has tats to commemorate her favorite musicians, like John Lennon, Prince, and Mötley Crüe, and now that she’s on a hippier, spiritual path, she even got inked with the seven chakra symbols on her chest.

However, not everyone is a fan of Paris’ tattoos. In fact, the burgeoning model has received a lot of backlash for covering her body in so much ink in so little time. Of course, the always outspoken Paris had something to say on the matter and she expressed her opinions about her tats on her Instagram. “The craftsmanship of tattoos will always be a controversy,” she wrote. “Some people like them, some people absolutely hate them. I appreciate art, I always have. Especially when that art means something to me. Today I can look at my inner forearms and see art that has meaning for me, I don’t see a dark past anymore. My scars and past of self-hatred have been covered by loving marks, creativity, ingenuity.. and depth.”

If you’re wondering what she meant by “scars” from her past, earlier this year she revealed to Rolling Stone that she once attempted suicide when she was 15 by cutting her wrists and downing a bunch of Motrin. Her past drug use had also left track marks on her arms, but she says today she’s in a better place, and her love of tattoos and ink is a representation of that. “I look back at my old self and then I look in the mirror, and I see a fighter looking back at me,” she wrote on Instagram. “I’ll always keep fighting and encouraging others to stay strong.”

Check out the gallery to see Paris’ tattoos and their meanings. We couldn’t do all 50 — but it’s close!