Looking back at her childhood, Miley Cyrus knows she was fortunate to land her role on the Disney Channel series Hannah Montana. The character launched her career and made her a household name. However, she recently opened up about the experience and has very mixed feelings about her time on the show.

“I liked being in the Disney universe because I didn’t know anything else. I knew that I was getting to live what I wanted to do. I got to do two things that I loved. I got to act at that time and I got to be funny and I got to wear a wig and that was awesome and I got to wear a lot of sparkly things, so that was cool,” the 24-year-old said on CBS Sunday Morning. “I think now that I’m older, now I realize that’s a lot to put on a kid.”

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She continued, “It’s a lot to put on a kid to have them have to go get their makeup done and also balance school and also have me dress up in a wig as a kid is a little weird — it’s a little Toddlers & Tiaras.” Yikes. For those who may not be familiar with the TLC reality show, Toddlers & Tiaras chronicles the lives of young girls who compete in beauty pageants.

She also blamed the show for messing with her mind. “I definitely look back on it as a good time. I think what was hard for me was balancing everything,” she added. “I think it got harder when I started touring as both — I toured as Hannah Montana and as myself. I think that’s probably what’s a little bit wrong with me now! I mark that up to doing some extreme damage in my psyche as an adult person.”

This is not the first time Miley has opened up about the negative effects of playing the “best of both worlds.” “I was made to look like someone that I wasn’t, which probably caused some body dysmorphia because I had been made pretty every day for so long, and then when I wasn’t on that show, it was like, Who the f–k am I?” she told Marie Claire in 2015. “I would have anxiety attacks. I’d get hot flashes, feel like I was about to pass up or throw up. It would happen a lot before shows, and I’d have to cancel.”