Holidays are when it hits the hardest. Though pop star Ariana Grande and rapper Mac Miller split in May, just before Ari’s whirlwind romance and engagement to SNL star Pete Davidson, it’s clear her ex-boyfriend hasn’t strayed far from her mind. Since the rapper passed away in September, Ariana has spoken out and paid many a heartfelt tribute, but her Thanksgiving homage posted to her Instagram story on Nov. 22, really hits home.

Thanksgiving is one of the biggest holidays for getting together with the ones you love, and telling them how much they mean to you. This year, Ari took to her Instagram stories to repost an old photo from last year, where she is laying next to a sleeping Mac. She originally captioned the photo with the simple words “A pie” and used a pretty cute Thanksgiving filter for the sweet pic. But, of course, this year is a little different for Ari, so when she reposted the special photo, she added a new caption: “You’re [very] missed.” The post made Ari’s feelings on Thanksgiving without Mac pretty clear.

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Before Ari and Mac’s split in May, the duo had dated for two years and honestly, fans were sure the two were going to make it for the long haul. But her statement regarding the break up now seems a bit like the echo of her current smash single ‘thank u, next,’ a song born out of Ariana’s struggles with her past relationships. “I respect and adore him endlessly and am grateful to have him in my life in any form, at all times regardless of how our relationship changes or what the universe holds for each of us!” Ari wrote about their break up back in May. “Unconditional love is not selfish. It is wanting the best for that person even if at the moment, it’s not you.”

Between Mac’s passing and her sweet but short engagement to Pete, Ari’s had quite the emotional rollercoaster of a year. And that’s before even mentioning her rough past with the Manchester bombings. The point is, the girl has been through it all and then some. We hope she keeps her head up this holiday season –– we need your strength, Ari.