During an extremely emotional episode of Keeping Up With the Kardashians on Sunday, March 19, Kim Kardashian relived her Paris robbery — including the moment she thought she’d be raped.

The 36-year-old recalled how masked men entered her apartment last October to steal $10 million worth of jewelry, and how one of them duck-taped her mouth before moving down to her legs. The mother-of-two, who was wearing a bathrobe with nothing underneath, explained how she fully expected to be sexually assaulted.

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“They’re going to rape me,” she remembered thinking, “and I fully mentally prepped myself.” She also expected to be shot after seeing their guns. “I pray Kourtney’s going to have a normal life after she sees my dead body on the bed,” Kim thought silently. Thankfully, the thief just duck-taped her ankles and placed her in the bathtub.

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Kim told her sisters Kourtney and Khloé Kardashian how frightened she got when she heard the criminals pounding up the stairs. “My heart started to get really tense. I knew something wasn’t quite right… So I slid off my bed and picked up my phone and I’m like, I don’t know how to call 911 in a foreign country.”

The men, dressed in French police uniforms, had kidnapped the concierge, who acted as a translator. “I’m like, ‘Are we going to die? Are they going to kill us?’” Kim recalled asking the hotel employee. “I was just like crying, ‘Tell them I have babies.'”

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After the hour-long episode aired, the brunette beauty posted a heartfelt message on Instagram. “I took a tragic horrific experience and did not let it diminish me, rather grew and evolved and allowed the experience to teach me,” she wrote. “I can say I’ve become so much better because of it….thank you for allowing me to share my story tonight.”

Kim previously revealed on Twitter that she decided to tell her version of events on KUWTK because, “I thought it was important to share this story through my eyes & not in an interview where my own words could be twisted.”

We’re just happy she’s okay and that she was able to reunite with her two children!