Tragic. The Hills star Whitney Port revealed that she suffered a miscarriage just a few weeks ago. The starlet currently has one child, Sonny, with her husband, Tim Rosenman. She recalled the unfortunate story during the July 23 episode of her podcast, “With Whit.”

“This is really hard for me to write. Two weeks ago, I had a miscarriage,” the 34-year-old wrote in an Instagram caption to accompany a video clip from her show. “The amount of various emotions I felt in the past couple weeks have been extreme … from shock to sadness to relief, which then led to guilt for feeling that relief.” The blonde beauty confessed, “My identity has been shaken in regards to who as a mom and human being.”

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This is really hard for me to write. Two weeks ago, I had a miscarriage. The amount of various emotions I felt in the past couple weeks have been extreme…from shock to sadness to relief, which then led to guilt for feeling that relief. My identity has been shaken in regards to who as a mom and human being. I’m currently in the process of learning to accept that my feelings are valid no matter what they are. Whether or not people feel the same way as me or not. They are my personal emotions that are the result from my own journey. The video above is a glimpse into the story and coming to terms with how I feel. I welcome anyone to share their stories or feelings. I want my platform to be an open place where we can share difficult conversations. To see more of this video click the link in my bio. and to hear the full conversation visit my podcast #WITHWHIT

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In the video, Whitney is having a candid conversation with her husband about what was going through her head during the miscarriage. “I felt like this timing was really terrible to be pregnant and so there was part of me when we were in limbo that was like, ‘If this isn’t going to happen I think I’m OK with it,'” she admitted. However, these thoughts equally freaked her out. She remembered wondering at the time: “Can I even say this to Timmy? Is he going to be so hurt and think I’m such a terrible person for even thinking this?” Her supportive man jumped in and assured her that he does not.

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These two make my world go round and I would not be a a mother without them. It is by far the most challenging yet rewarding role in the entire world. I feel blessed to even have the opportunity. Timmy- I thank my lucky stars every day for you. You give me the freedom to do what I love and the confidence to be the best version of myself for our baby. Thank you to my mama who taught me almost everything I know about how to raise this little monkey. I think he will be a better person because of the knowledge and love she has given me. And to all the mamas out there who have been my ride or dies through this whole crazy journey- May the force continue to be with you. I love you all more than you will ever know. Cheers to another year of keeping these children alive and well! They literally wouldn’t be alive if it weren’t for us!! Xoxo

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The reality starlet’s revelation was obviously difficult but she further explained in the caption that she will not apologize for her genuine emotions. “I’m currently in the process of learning to accept that my feelings are valid no matter what they are,” she wrote. “Whether or not people feel the same way as me or not. They are my personal emotions that are the result from my own journey.”

That’s not to say that Whitney feels lukewarm about the situation, she revealed in the video that she’s completely shaken over what happened. “The whole thing is just traumatic,” she said through tears. “It’s traumatic to think about your body going through this and something being inside of you that could have been someone like a Sonny or something. I feel sad.”

We hope the family can recover from this tragic event.