Still coping. Nikki Bella revealed in a new interview that she suffered from depression after she was nearly abducted as a teen. The Total Divas star, 34, opened up about the traumatic experience during a Monday, Nov. 20, interview with the Chasing Glory with Lilian Garcia podcast.
“I remember walking home one day from school and this car pulled up behind me really slow, and it gave me a really weird feeling. And all of a sudden, it skimmed me and the man was half-naked and [he] tried to pull me into his car and [was] saying crazy things to me,” the WWE personality shared. “And it was terrifying. I remember, like, fighting, running to the nearest house, screaming, crying. Like, praying the person was home because I didn’t know I was being chased. Being a 15-year-old girl, that year I went through so much. And it, like, broke me.”
During her conversation with Lilian Garcia, Nikki said that there was another agonizing incident from her high school years that also contributed to her depression. ”And then, actually this hits the nail on the head that I literally went into depression,” she said. “Who I thought were two guy friends took a picture up my skirt at school and then passed it around.”
She continued, ”I’ll never forget walking into school that day and everyone’s staring at me and I was like, ‘Why is everyone looking at me?’ And, like, pointing and laughing. I’m like, ‘What the heck?’ Because I was wearing a thong with my skirt…Imagine a photo like that.”
“I was just destroyed and embarrassed and humiliated,” Nikki recounted. “I never wanted to be seen. I literally went home, locked myself in my room for, like, three days and refused to come out…It made me so depressed and I was so over men, too. I think that’s what started to give me independence, but it gave me a very big shell. Like putting my emotions away and locking it up and never showing it again.”
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Nikki admitted that, to this day, she still has trouble allowing herself to be emotionally vulnerable after those two teenage experiences. However, the brunette beauty said that the one person she can let her guard down around is her fiancé, John Cena.
“John has really brought that out in me. So I think it was, like, the first time people saw me give such goo-goo eyes or be so happy and giddy. He would start to break it,” Nikki said. “John, I have this giddiness with him and I get lost in his big ole arms and I’m swept off my feet. I think my mom is kind of this way, too. We’re just such strong women. My mom’s been through so much, so I think that’s where I got it from.”
Total Divas airs on E! Wednesdays at 9 p.m. EST.